Martyrs

Well the other day was a feast day of Sts Peter and Paul..Since they're martyrs it got me to thinking about the kind of faith one would have to have to die for God..I'll be honest-I don't think I could ever do it. I'd probably run away, then of course feel guilty for it. Well I cant even begin to think of the kind of love and faith one would have to have in order to be willing to give their entire self for God, and in many cases the death wasnt without torture. I guess in many respects its not so much the love for God, but its the strength and selflessness that the love of God provides for one that helps them to do that...Wow..Well, hopefully I won't be subject to martyrdom anytime soon becuase that would really suck.

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RIP

Infomercials just wont be the same without Billy Mays :(

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My last...

My last post was a bit pathetic I admit..Its OK though..Just a slight human moment :) It was completly unoriginal-because I hop on to facebook and "RIP Michael Jackson..Farrah Fawcett.. [Ed McMahon]." Was everywhere. I failed to recognize Ed McMahon, simply because Im holding on to a grudge since he never showed up at my house with balloons and a big check with my name and one million dollah on it. It will pass eventually though. Nothing a little confession, penance, and prayer can't fix :) Anyhow..I was looking over some news, and noticed an article pretty much freaking out over Anne Coulter's comment on the murder of abortion doctor, something Tiller..I forget his first name, so sue me. Well anyhow, it was bitching about how she mentioned that they had killed Tiller in his something-hundreth trimester. People were pretty pissed off with Coulter's words about the whole situation. What people failed to recognize was that Coulter stated that she didn't condone the killers- but just the fact that she was making a statement to question the idea of just when does life begin? When we kill a child in its first trimester, its pretty much the same as killing a person in their 100th trimester. While Coulter can be a bit to blunt for me sometimes, she had a point. And I guess the whole argument irks me because people seem to be able to rip into conservatives so freely, while bashing a liberal is much less tolerated. Liberals are often seen as "progressive" and the "open-minded" folks who support the people...I guess liberals have convinced us that was is different these days seems to be the "politically correct" way to be, whereas being a conservative and opposing certain views is simply rude and intolerant (and homophobic). Well, I'll write more later. Maybe.

This has nothing to do with my faith as a Catholic..but as a fan of the entertainment biz :(

Well....As many of you know, this is one of the saddest days in entertainment history..I woke up to "Farrah Fawcett, dead at 62.." well, I saw that one coming. But I come home to "Michael Jackson, dead at 50." OK, I know M.J. is known for his sketchyness and poor decisions, but he is a legend in the entertainment biz!! He was a great performer, had great songs, and he never bit a bat's head off or took out one of his ribs (as far as I know).. Does that make him a good person?? I don't know..But, I know theres a lot more artists out there who are just as sketchy-but, they don't have the music that matches Jackson's...So, lets hear it for Fawcett and Jackson!! And, to make this Catholic related I will pray for there souls at prayer group..

RIP Farreh Fawcett :(

My fav quote by her: "The reason that the all-American boy prefers beauty to brains is that he can see better than he can think." gahhh another great star of the good old times gone to God..

Sin

Well this is gonna be a short post because it has been one of those days where by about 5 pm I am feeling like in 70 and need to go to bed. I think its more of a caffeine crash, I didn't fit my 4 o'clock coffee break in there today, but thats OK. Well, I've been thinking lately about humility, etc etc..I actually wrote a little bit about it in my faith journey journal and was gonna post it on the blog, but, as I mentioned before I'm to tired to write a novel tonight. So I'm going to say I've been thinking of humility, and of course pride is one of those seven deadly sins..But I've been wondering, where does sin begin?? Does it begin with temptation?? No, because temptation is the pre-thought type thing to sin..Its like Eve with the "I want that apple but God said don't touch it.." And then she touches it, theres step one..She eats it...Theres step two...And BAM! She is cursed with wearing ugly figs and painful childbirth and what not for the rest of her life-and she cursed all of women with the same thing! Love you too Eve :) Well, ok, Im beginning to digress-awful habit of mine..Well, anyways, I think sin starts when we begin to view ourselves as God. Now this doesn't necessarily happen in an overt way, you know, one day we wake up and say "I'm God and I'll do whatever I want!!" Nope, it happens in small ways..We're given all these devices these days that make us feel in control of our lives--cell phones, pda's, gps', iphones, and the American vote..All of which are good things..But they are definetly things that can lead us to sin because they give us that sense of control in our lives. And its a false sense of control..Well ok im not so sure where I'm going with this but I'm just going to type anyways. OK well I am just saying that sin begins when we think that this false sense of control is making out lives run smoothly-and it doesn't necessarily have to come from the devices I mentioned before..With the apple, or whatever it was, Eve felt almost like a god--she was touching that forbidden thing, she was going to that place where she really wasn't supposed to be going in life.. And she ended up losing it in the end (not in a literal sense.but..you know--losing that perfection, etc etc)..OK well this is starting to turn into a novel and I will write more later :)

i think health care reform is absurd...perhaps i should just pack my bags and move to korea?

funny funny funny..have i told ya'll how much i low sarah haskins??

Tempers...Tempers...Tempers...

OK well I must confess a fault I have: I can have a horrible temper.. No Im not the type of person who will explode, blow up, or flip out on someone (most of the time). My temper is subdued a bit, but I tend to tell people off. Silent treatment isn't how I roll. So at work today I got a bit pissed off because someone told my aide something about what was going on before they came to me and told me. It was quite petty actually, but, I guess I was moreso frustrated with something else and just got a bit more irked in this situation..But anyhow- as a Catholic I find it hard sometimes to justify being angry and expressing it. I think that Catholics are taught to always be patient, obedient, docile, etc. So when I do get angry and tell someone off I feel bad- because I feel like it is completly unCatholic.. But then I think of the time Jesus flipped the tables over and started freaking out on the people in the temple selling stuff--see even Jesus had a bit of a temper too! Right?? Well when is freaking out just?? I guess not in a situation where pride is involved...lives are at stake(I guess war would be the ultimate "flip out," but sometimes could be just), or the reasoning is just plain dumb. Well, I guess thats my thought for the day..And I decided it would be worthy of a blog post.

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Whenever I've had a rough day theres adoration...running...and then theres Sarah Haskins.

good news blog readers! i found out i only need to be in the 12th percentile for math for my master's program...9 more percents to go..better than 47!

Honesty: if i've learned one thing in life..its that honesty and straightforwardness are rare..so,im gonna try to work on those for myself

AHHAHAHA I LOVE SARAH HASKINS!!

gotta love sarah haskins

Headacchhhheee

Dude..I woke up with the worst headache this morning..No, I didn't do anything last night that would've caused this-but it sure felt like I did. Well, ok, since this is supposed to be a Catholic blog I guess I should relate it to the faith..How does one relate having a headache to their faith? Well, I get a lot of headaches, and they aren't just small ones that some tylenol will take care of. I get them to the point where I need to stay in and can't go out. Sucks. But anyways, I guess sometimes when I get a headache it reminds me of how bad off I could be. Most of the time it goes away over night and Im fine the next day- but theres lots of folks out there who aren't that lucky. I see it all the time as an occupational therapy student, in fact I've experienced a little bit of it myself when I broke my hip several years ago. Let me just say there is nothing more humbling than not being able to get up out of bed to do simple tasks- and needing someone else to do it for you. I guess having experienced a bit of that myself helps me to emphathize with patients, I don't know. But anyways, having a headache really helps me to remember how much God has blessed me. And I think theres lots of folks out there who feel the same way when they've gotten hurt or had an illness of some sort. Not only can I get out of bed in the morning and make it to the bathroom without help, I can turn the channel when Oprah comes on and I can run around with the children at work--I guess the point is what more can one ask for?? Sometimes I feel as though I have more than what I deserve but less than what I desire, and its really pretty selfish I guess to want more when I already have more than what a lot of folks out there have. OK well thats my mindless rambling for today..I'll post more on this later :)

TGIF- that phrase often reminds me I tend to neglect thanking God for everything I have-and only say "thank God" when its Friday.

Fear

Well, I guess my first post will be about something that prevails in our lives from time to time, that is, fear. Whether our fears are over little things, like my fear of pigeons (comes from nearly getting attacked by about a dozen) to fears over moving, a terminal illness, or leaving home- fear is something we all have whether we admit it or not. Lately I've been feeling God pushing me to grow deeper into my spiritual journey, and I'll admit I've been afraid. I'm only 22 so sometimes I think to myself, you know I'm awful young why don't I just go out, have fun, and do what I want for a little while-then I'll start listening to God afterwards. OK I guess you could say I did that a few months ago and continued to throughout most of Lent. My problem was a guy that I was talking to who was definetly an interference with my spiritual journey. I thought to myself, hey this is cool, date someone who is completly different then what you are used to. So I did, and boy was that a mistake. I knew God was trying to lead me away from him and the things I was getting myself into- I can't tell you how many times my phone went dead (even broke once) during the times we would text back and forth for endless hours..I mean we did talk on the phone and hang out a lot, but whenever we would text my phone would always end up in the toilet (not literally of course). Why didn't I listen to God or stop and think of the poor choices I was making? I think a big part was fear, pride too of course, but fear was a major deterrent to my relationship with God during that time. I was afraid that if I didn't engage in this rebellion, I would miss out on a lot of what life had to offer me. Sounds pretty dumb right? Well, the past month or so I've been slowing down and getting back to where I used to be in my faith, because I realized that my fear was only causing me to be like a deer in the headlights..I wasn't making any progress, actually I was regressing, and ultimately I was unhappy. Do I regret anything that I did in between then and now?? Well, I regret I decided to put God on the back burner in order to "enjoy life," and I regret the fact that I didn't "know better." I don't regret the fact that I learned enjoying life doesn't mean you have to rebel, turn away from God, and ditch all of His plans for you. I figure this world isn't out to make you happy, and I guess thats what I was seeking ultimately..This world doesn't love us like God does, because this world did not offer its life for our sake. This may sound cliche but I realized that because God loves us so much that He died for us, obviously His plans are intended to make us happy- so why turn away from that? Why be afraid of something thats ultimately supposed to wipe away fear?? One thing my pastor quotes from a lady he knows is that 'fear is a lack of faith.' And wow, I can't think of anything more truthful than that. I guess I was lacking faith in God's love and didn't think I'd have any fun--after all, girls just want to have fun ;) But I'm back, and probably stronger in my faith than I was before my little retaliation, and Im happy that I've grown from the fact that the grass is definetly not greener in our culture's plans for us.

Well... There goes my first mindless rambling on something pertaining to the faith ;)